Thank you. :)
It’s hard for the family, but God’s ways are amazing. His thoughts are really higher than ours. We are not a Christian family. I am the only Christian in the family, but even though I still pray that God shall put his salvation in my family and that He shall create in our hearts a heart that is for God alone. I always pray to God and ask God when I shall see my family attend a service at church or hear them respond to accepting Jesus as their personal savior and God. That’s what God did, in His time he answered my prayers. During the time that daddy was in the hospital, though he was unconscious, I believed that his spirit was alive and willing to listen - I prayed to my dad the acceptance prayer, 2 days before his life was taken by God. At that moment, I realized that it is God who has given and taketh away. I knew that it’s God’s way of telling me that He is faithful to me and to my family, that when He told me He shall save me and my entire household He will do so. I finally then had peace of mind and just let go of dad, because I believe He just then do what He thinks is best for me. Then at Friday night, my brother messaged me and told me that daddy’s dead already, it was 6:25pm and I was about to go home from work. As I rushed to the hospital crying, my boss (also a Christian) told me to have a presence of mind, at all times. That’s what I did, I calm myself, contact people to help us find a funeral, grab food for mom, head on the hospital, check on a car to ride on.etc. I was awestruck, because I wasn’t a crybaby anymore. God has totally prepared me for this situation. It came to me all the circumstances that I had gone through, and this is what God has been wanting me to understand, that these things shall happen to me and I will know that God is my strength, God is my healer, God is my comfort, God is a faithful promiser. At the funeral, God answered me again, my long time prayer. Every night, during the wake, I asked the church where I am attending, to arrange a service. Awesome God, for 6 days, my family and other relatives were able to hear messages from God and all of them accepted Jesus as their personal Savior and Lord. I know that turning to God is a process, but I believe that the seed which was planted in their hearts will soon grow. I learned that when I God told me that He is my strength, he lets me see my weaknesses. When he told me that He is my great Comfort, he lets me experience sadness and longing and sorrow. When He told me that Heaven is my gain, he will never let me know what it means to lose. When he told me that He is my victory, He lets me experience failure. God is a faithful Forgiver so He saved my family. I am hopeful with that promise of God.
God Bless. <3